Regret

Never good enough for their precious boy
I smoked, wore trousers,
drank the occasional half of shandy
against their teetotal rules.
The wrong religion, I was obliged to change.
For twenty years of marriage the underdog
not good enough a mother
for their precious grandchildren.

Circumstances change.
After the divorce a letter of apology came.
All my resentment evaporated too late
for the friendship that could have saved the day.

At dVerse  Poetry Pub Kelly asks us to write a poem of forgiveness to someone from the past who is no longer here.  Mine is a bit mixed up.  Also linked at Octpowrimo day 28

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22 Responses to Regret

  1. That’s so sad, Viv. Especially for those who know and love the wonderful person you are. It was their loss.

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  2. Sad and powerful. I love your honesty and I applaud it.

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  3. catterel says:

    Catharsisi? You’re very brave to share this. Hugs xx

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  4. thehutts says:

    Difficult for the Grandchild to read but glad you got an apology – if you still have it I would be interested to see it sometime. You did play golf with the Grandfather (who I miss and got on well with) so it can’t have been all bad. Sally

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  5. Sanaa Rizvi says:

    It takes great strength and courage to share your pain with others. Big hugs!

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  6. I had to take a deep breath here as my heart was shouting “how dare they” because I know, even then, you were an amazing person to know. How dishonouring of you they were. It took great courage to share this pain.

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  7. I think you’re brave to post something so honest and difficult to deal with. I have such troubles in my family also. You have a lot to say here and I really appreciate you sharing it.

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  8. It is sad when the realization came to, a tad too late. But it did nevertheless, so it is ok!

    Hank

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  9. kelly says:

    So sad that this is so often the case, taking years to get past the anger and the hurt and finally finding a way to forgiveness. Better late then never, I guess, but yes, sometimes even that is too late.

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  10. Mary says:

    I am glad there was an apology, but it is sad to think back at the many wasted years….. Love the honesty in this one, Viv!

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  11. Isn’t it amazing how an simple apology can wipe clean all the animosity that has grown between people. I think you’ve just given me an idea for someone I’ve grown apart from.

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  12. Grace says:

    I hope it was not too late ~ But its good to get that letter of apology anyway ~ Good one Viv ~

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  13. Bodhirose says:

    In-laws can be very trying…what a shame.

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  14. This is so harsh.. too late after that divorce. So many moments lost, and so much easier on their grandchildren… I sincerely hope it was not too late for everything

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  15. Very honest and touching! Was it hard to write?

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  16. paper sea says:

    Oh, wow. That ending is powerful.

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